No surprise, I’m sitting in a coffee shop again, sipping my coffee, people watching and relaxing.
That’s right, just pause. Pausing the mess that is my life to sit back and enjoy it. Odd as it may sound, but it’s true.
One year ago, my life was uprooted and I was thrown into a bleak recursion. I lost all the love and joy in my life. Living became a chore, but I trotted on. Life sucked and I was very confused, unsure what I was to do next. Sounds familiar? Doctors call it vicus vita articulus, but it’s more commonly known as the quarterlife crisis.
The more I interact with the Internet (that includes you who’s reading this…that’s right, I see you), the more I realized that we are a complete mess. We all have issues, problems and are all over the place. And yet, we all flock to the Internet to find an outlet.
Don’t deny it. It’s true. But be happy and joyous about it because it’s a beautiful mess.
I interact grossly with bloggers and YouTubers. Looking at each one that I personally know, I can’t help but smile and fall further in love with each one of you. We each have our own mess, but each one is unique and beautiful.
Don’t believe me? Just look at each one of these folks:
Jenn leaves Chicago for LA and is now taking a blogging hiatius.
Erika and her dating escapes.
Karen is trying find a job and applying to grad school while juggling a life of a nanny.
Monica learning to live a new life with a disease.
Ashley dealing with her enormous debt.
We are all in such a mess. Our lives are in turmoil with no specific direction, goal or endpoint. We live each day hoping that the next will be better. We’re all thirsting for an adventure. For something different; something joyful that would bring a smile to our faces.
We live not because we have to, but because we know that something great is near and coming. Our lives may be all over the place. Our future unknown, but we know that something great will come out of all of this.
So today, as I sit in a coffee shop, now on my second cup of coffee, I can’t help but smile. I am a mess. I don’t know what is next. Then again, I don’t want to know. This time last year I was hoping for something different; an adventure that will turn all things around. And I did, I had an adventure of a lifetime. But today, I feel like I’m at the same place as I was last year. And yet, I know that I’m not. I may be anxious and curious of what is next for me; waiting for another adventure to start. Except, I know that my next adventure has already begun and it will become apparent to me in due time.
This pause, it’s not because I want to escape from my mess of my so called life. This pause is meant for me appreciating the mess of my life. I love my life and I would not have it any other way. From the triumphs and the failures, I love it all. The mess and the successes, this is my life. Without it, I would not become the person who I am today. Without it, it would not be my life.
My life is a mess, but it is beautiful.