The First Time I Experienced Racism

I was a senior in high school and my computer class drove to St. Joseph’s College in Indiana for a programming competition.  We were the only school that came from Chicago.  Most other schools were from central Illinois & Indiana.

Prior to the competition, my classmates and I were huddled around a cafeteria table cramming for the exam.  Everything looked normal to me. High school students working together trying to help their school win. Until I looked up and happen to turn to my right.

A young male, who had the attention of his classmates, said the words, “Damn those minorities.” And proceed to point his finger as if it was a gun, triggered, and shot it in my direction.

That was the first moment of my life where I truly saw race for the first time.  That male student was white.  Heck, everyone in the cafeteria was white except for my school.  There was 4 white, 3 Asians and one Hispanic.  We were the only diverse team in the competition.

I turned to my friends to see if they saw what just happened, but they were too focused on ensuring that we would compete well.  And we did.  We finished in second place.

But to this day, I still don’t understand how or why the color of my skin brought so much hate to that teenage white male kid that he wanted to kill me over a computer programming competition.

I was 17 and that was when I experienced racism for the first time.

Internet Graveyard

Like all things, sometimes I just don’t know where to begin.

In this particular case, I don’t know why I stopped writing.  I still write in my head, but we all know how well that goes. *coughs*Karen*coughs*

Priorities shift, things come up and then there are the excuses.  And yet, I don’t know where this falls into.  A little bit of all and a little of something that isn’t there.

And such is life about all these things.

I feel like it’s a graveyard of words of days past. But hasn’t it always been?  Isn’t that what the Internet is for? A graveyard of fleeting moments of time? Information be damned when one doesn’t reference it beyond a year.

I’m sure people will disagree and other bloggers won’t say that their blog is a graveyard, but I’m okay with mine being one since the beginning.  It’s a graveyard of memories, adventures, stories, anecdotes and all the mundane of this life of Pham.  It’ll be here for me to walk through here and there; and perhaps for those of future generations.

I Wish I Could Hate You

But I don’t Rose Tyler.

The problem is that Bad Wolf is everywhere. Wherever I go, there’s an imprint of you there.

bad wolf

It would be a lot easier if I could hate you, but no matter how hard I try, I can’t.

All that’s left is to leave this incarnation behind & become 11.

Make It Count

“Life is a daring adventure or nothing at all.”
– Helen Keller

“I never worry about the future. It comes soon enough.”
– Albert Einstein

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”
– Mae West

“Buy the ticket and take the ride.”
– Hunter S. Thompson

“Do one thing everyday that scares you.”
– Eleanor Roosevelt

“But above all, try something.”
– Franklin D. Roosevelt

 
#makeitcount2014

Top 10 Post of 2013

Here are the top 10 best/favorite blog posts I wrote in 2013:

No. 10:

The Eating Phase of the Marathon Training – posted on August 27th.

I really give no bothers of how much and the insane portion sizes I eat now.

No. 9:

Milford Sound & the South Island of New Zealand – posted on April 12th.

The absolute most breathtaking day trip of my life.

No. 8:

My First Drinking Experience – posted on August 17th.

”Things were moving, and so was I.”

No. 7:

The Flame Babies of Broomball – posted April 16th.

Miss my old style blog posts?  This new video of mine really encompass how my blog was many years ago.  I love this story & I hope you’ll laugh along with me.

No. 6:

Hiking in the Grand Canyon on the Bright Angel Trail – posted on November 11th.

Ever since a little kid, I always wanted to see the Grand Canyon.  After seeing pictures and videos, Matt & I made sure we visited one of the most breathtaking places in the US.  Come join us for a hike on the Bright Angel Trail.  Just watch out of rattlesnakes!

No. 5:

Asian Glow Pepcid AC Challenge – posted on July 1st.

For those of you who don’t know, the Asian glow is when someone who drinks alcohol turns red.  It’s concentrated in Asians, but it’s definitely not limited.  It’s because we’re missing an enzyme to digest alcohol.  It doesn’t mean we can’t drink, it just means we turn red.  Some have it have it worse than others.  But no matter what, a little bit of alcohol and we’re all flushed up.

No. 4:

Do More – posted on January 1st.

If you’re like me, then you’re probably hung over.  So instead of sparing you to read more words, here’s a video for the new year.

No. 3:

See You in November – posted on May 29th.

No. 2:

10K Words in 10 Pictures – posted on August 13th.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words.  If that is the case, here are 10 pictures of mine that I love and would like to share with you.  

No. 1:

The Quad that United Us – posted on May 20th.

They made dorm parties look cool and house parties pathetic.  Everyone wanted to check out & be part of the Quad.  From the  living room lounge couches with the projector, to the space station living quarters, the brain station of desks and the glowing bar.  The Quad was the epitome of what people dreamed dorm rooms to be; and the best part, it was real.  It could be argued that the room brought everyone together; whether it was the parties, the gaming or the blaring techno music.  But the underlying truth was that the four brought us all together. People of all different backgrounds, majors, personalities and lifestyles uniting under one room.  The Quad united us.